well yea sheez.... long time yes....
I never to seem to have anytime anymore to update.... to live... no time.... i'm always busy. I catch my self going crazy. I'm fake. but can you blame me it seems i live life only for others, never for myself. Yesterday, i found a few mins. to my self, to enjoy the lovely weather (when its calm), to close my eyes, to feel that life still has hope for comfort, but of course it was during third as i went to the bathroom, but still i felt so warm inside.
But yes fake, to the point i really don't know who i am, what i want to do in my life. Anger bulids inside of me, sadness, craziness. It got to me, thurs. i didn't feel well, it might of been sumthing i ate or sumthing, but deep down i can't help to feel its due to stress/life/everything.
But silly me, when madness builds up, i take it out, mostly on JR which i do feel horrible about....sorry babe.
ALthough, honestly, can people blame me for being mad/crazy/ frusterated? If you have a praoblem please say something instead of waiting to the end to BLAME ME. What are you doing? I mean, who really are my friends?I don't know... who out there will include me or ask, who will not DITCH/BAIL on me?
i can't talk to anyone, maybe to like only one or two, but is that enough to feel i have true friends? I feel "aquainted".... i use to have a close friend but she doesn't go to my school anymore.... now whos going to be there?
I give up, remember when i was so positive, so happy?
I'm negative, i give up easily, but i can't help it
But maybe i'm just stupid and its just school getting to me, but i sgined me up for this .
its not like anyone reads this but yea....... heres some pictures
BUT ON A LIGHTER NOTE
i am 16 baby!
hahahha look at the boy...HAPPY B-lated:)
what is he doing to his lip???
smile suzieeee
mommy n daddyyyy
And when your 16 u drive....err driving school
stacie n megan humping?
awww the awesome girls from driving school.... top megan n me bottom diana patrice and stacie
yay!! we graduated!!!
And when its ur b-day theres someone elses!!! (RAKIA!)
awwww don't they look lovely!!!
sam n me!!!
me stacie n sam!!! getting out of the limo
other pictures........
hahahha freaking ICC baby! hahah look at ted!!
jess n me (my mini me!)
evil stacie.....
my gay best friends who like to gang up on my n beat me
the girls
the girls again n again
TINA!!! buahah i have a picture
mike (AKA BIG ASS NOSE)
hehehe yes!!! again plus sexi zarha!!!!
fireeeee....
yes pictures always makes me feel better..... yes this is the crazy part
let me leave you w/ a lyric....
so kiss me hard cause this may be the last time that i'll let you....
-dashboard (thank you tiff!) | 
) and BRA's 34B's represent!!!
